Friday, May 29, 2009

Lacking & Catching Up

So it seems I've almost forgotten about this little guy. I guess I just hadn't had much to say lately?
Two days ago, after much talk about the frustration of lack of funds, my mom reminded me that I have several savings bonds in my name. By several, she meant 26. I've been getting them since my first birthday, and usually since then on Christmases and birthdays, up until 2003. These nice little bonds earn money, so my mom encouraged me to find out how much they were worth now. All added up, it came to $1800. I almost choked. That's a lot of money, since I haven't made any in about 2 years. I told her I knew what I would do with it, I wanted my 50D. The Canon EOS 50D is like, a really nice camera for someone who isn't a paid professional photographer. I'd been eyeing it for the past year. But all this money, all these little investments year to year from my grandparents and great-grandparents, still has time to grow. As much as I knew the camera of my dreams (for the most part) would be a good decision, I couldn't help but feel guilty-- especially when my mom says, "I figured you might use it for something important, like your first down-payment on an apartment or something. But that's cool too." Even though that was her initial reaction, and her later reaction was much more optimistic, those words rang in my head for a couple hours, and still do.
I went ahead and gathered the bonds, cashed/deposited them, dashed to Best Buy and snagged the camera, as if I were at the head of a horde of people trying to get it before me.
I feel really great now that I have it. The only part I missed out on in the process was actually seeing that much money, in cash. I just had the bank teller put it in my checking account. I kinda wished I flaunted it long enough for it to have seemed real-- that I ever had that much money in my possession. Whatever...
And now, I have about $220 left. I feel like I should've left out some bonds, so they had more time to earn themselves some interest. Maybe my savings account will do, for the time being.
Last night, I tried out my new child.




Dallas May 2009 & Dallas July 2008.


My mom's been reading the Sookie Stackhouse Chronicles, the books which formed the HBO show True Blood, which starts back up on June 6th!! <3


Tuesday, I went to Berkeley with Dallas, Scott, & Vera (whom we met there) and I got my owl's frame touched up.


I also got this little bee, from another artist in the shop. It was great: Vera and I were getting tattooed at the same time, we were drinking 40's, I spent only $10 that day, and I got to hangout with some of my favorite people :].

Tonight is Keek da Sneak at the Broken Wheel with Vera... lol, we'll see how that goes. I need a good night-out.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Ow

Being broke is seriously the most unfortunate situation I've ever been in. I wouldn't wish it upon anyone. Lack of funds creates lack of confidence, reliability, fun, and who knows how many other things. I've been broke for so long that I'll even say I'm less happy without money. I can't do shit, I can't even afford to buy used clothing! Its just a crazy cycle where I can't buy gas to go to the store to buy new clothes, to make myself feel/look better, to get that job I want, to make the money I need. FAAACK. The only thing that's made me feel better recently is quitting smoking, and I think it's some sort of universal epiphany because I've heard about several other people quitting in the last 2 weeks as well. Anyway... its a pity party over here today.