Candy Shop

(Written at 7pm, 3/31/09)
This weekend was fun, and including doing this with Vera.


Yesterday, I had a really big fight/argument with my parents. After the fog cleared, I realized that I had a paper due in which I had to compare two pieces from the MoMa, and it's due Wednesday. So I got my ass up this morning and went. The drive was nice, and thankfully my dad felt obliged to give me $20 for toll and museum admission. When I got into the MoMa ticket line, a woman came up to me and said she had an extra ticket, then asked if I wanted hers. I was like PHEWWW, now I wont be as broke as I could be.
Upon entrance, I was overwhelmed. Ever since taking my first art history class, seeing artwork I recognize is like running into a celebrity! So, here's some of the things I got to see.

Piet Mondrian



Kathe Kollwitz



Diego Rivera



Roy Lichtenstien


(I was so awestricken by this, it's a recreation of Monet's Rouen Cathedral series! And I love my boy Roy!)

Andy Warhol



Mark Rothko



Kiki Smith



Frida Kahlo



Vasily Kandinsky



Georgio de Chirlco


(I didn't know who this was initially, but I love this nonetheless.)

Rene Magritte



And as I left, the light coming through the sky-window in the MoMa was awesommmme.



My next adventure was in Berkeley for my tattoo appointment. Or actually, Oakland, but Berkeley is like 2 blocks down the street. My artist Ellie at FTW gave me a tough/long coloring session. Now that I'm home I can finally relax. My body's been stressed since 10am. Here's the results.



EDIT: At the current time, 9:09am, 4/1/09.
I'm now up pretty damn early since my class is at 12:30. I have to now use the things I saw at the MoMa to write a comparative essay. Wish me luck.

Futurism

Yesterday, on a walk with my mother between classes, we discussed my school career. This "career" of mine has never felt like it was on track, to me anyway. I've been to three different colleges in 3 years. It's been fun, but it's also been ridiculous.
We talked about how her own experiences have been so much different than mine. For example, she left her home at 17, didn't go to college, and has been working ever since. In a nutshell, she asked me to please figure my shit out. My mom wants me to be happy and wants me to not feel like school is a waste, because I currently do feel that way.
Afterwards, I went to Vera's for a good ol' chat. We talked about a lot-- what we've been through, and how it can help us now with what we want to achieve. During the conversation I realized how happy I would be busting my ass in photography. And when I've got my heart full from that, I can keep going to school for things like Art History, or whatever I may choose then. The art school I've always had my heart set on is CCA in Oakland. Today I plan to find out what it takes to get a loan, and things of that nature. Vera and I also decided we should get a place in Oakland or that area, and I'm now beginning to feel a little happier about my situation. I'm glad to have someone like her in my life.
Around 6pm, Lloyd, Vera's father, who I consider to be fairly wise and honest, let me know that it would be best to drop the class I should've been leaving for at that time. It was the answer I'd been waiting to hear from someone, someone who agreed with me. If the best I can get in a class is 75%, then why bother? I then stayed until midnight eating a delicious pesto-chicken-pasta dinner, playing Scrabble, watching Family Guy, and indirectly ignoring my boyfriend.
I hadn't talked to him all day... since about 2pm, anyway. He texted me at 8. You could (or maybe you couldn't) imagine he was a little off-put when he found out I was again at Vera's instead of spending time with him... Is it wrong that I don't care too much? At this point in my life, I'm not going to distance myself from my close friends. If nothing else, I'd like to be accepted into a loving household rather than disregarded in a hostile one.
Anyway... we exchanged a handful of text messages last night, and a couple today. No loving words, no i-miss-you's, nothing... I'm not in the greatest mood because of it, but I'm not upset or overjoyed either. The past few days I've been so overwhelmed with thought, that I haven't really given him any. I feel weird about it. We've been together for 6 months now. We should still be fresh, exciting, fun, and at least loving... I dont get it. My mom told me, "not everyone is meant for each other". I don't really want to accept that fact right now.

Today I was awoken at 5:50am by Vera, who informed me she'd be at my house to get me around 6:30am. Last night we planned to get up, go with her dad to his dialysis center, and hangout/exercise while he was receiving treatment.
We frequented in and out of the building as we got food, smoked, and jogged. The jog session was about an hour and a half, and my thighs are still throbbing. Vera helped her dad's medical assistant in some tube changing as I tried not to vomit, and I'm so white that I got a little sun-kissed on the jog.





His treatment finished early, so we took off and headed for Its A Grind to refill our decaffeinated souls... Then filled a prescription at Kaiser, and bought some yumyums at Safeway, before they took me home. Now I'm here... feeling absolutely grungy, and exhausted. I'd like to nap, but I'd also like to be so tired that I want to sleep early, in order to get up early again for work at 7:30 tomorrow morning. We'll see. Goodnight.